elijah - harder to lie.

i'm suffocating from
self medicating
and i don’t know a way out

when i say i blame you
and scream that i hate you
it tastes like blood in my mouth

and i can’t face all of my mistakes
so i broke every mirror in this place

i'm suffocating from
self medicating
like i don’t know a way out

yeah i swear i don’t even remember your face
all my memories of you are starting to fade
i’m not spending every night here lying awake
yeah i’m doing okay
i swear that I'm okay
i keep saying that it gets better with time
i keep telling everybody that i’m doing fine
yeah you’re not always sitting in the back of my mind
but it’s really getting harder and to lie yeah

feeling so hopeless
but you’ll never notice
cuz you know that i won’t admit

that you cut me open
here alone and broken
yeah you left me so sick

i bite my tongue when it comes to you
just hide and choke down the truth

feeling so hopeless
but you’ll never notice
why can’t you see what you did

yeah i swear i don’t even remember your face
all my memories of you are starting to fade
i’m not spending every night here lying awake
yeah i’m doing okay
i swear that I'm okay
i keep saying that it gets better with time
i keep telling everybody that i’m doing fine
yeah you’re not always sitting in the back of my mind
but it’s really getting harder and to lie yeah

harder to lie
harder to lie, yeah
harder to lie
harder to lie

i know my walls are caving in
cus you broke me down again and again
disguise my lies beneath my skin
i just pretend i just pretend

yeah i swear i don’t even remember your face
all my memories of you are starting to fade
i’m not spending every night here lying awake
yeah i’m doing okay
i swear that I'm okay
i keep saying that it gets better with time
i keep telling everybody that i’m doing fine
yeah you’re not always sitting in the back of my mind
but it’s really getting harder and to lie yeah

harder to lie
harder to lie, yeah
harder to lie
harder to lie, yeah