Dax - Dear Alcohol (MEGA Remix)
Lyrics
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
ain't gotta turn on the lights
i take a shot in the dark
goin round after round
to fill this hole in my heart
and i got nowhere to go
when it all falls down
got nowhere to run
when it all runs out
drownin' my sorrows with bottles
too intoxicated for me too take the high road
since the whiskey came, i done lost my way
lost myself in a drank
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
i can never ever live without it
the numbness and the pause i get from it
i can never fall asleep with all that venisive
so much troubles and pain i can't deal with it
or de la nonna keep on drinking
depression
i don't wanna deal with myself
i got wasted
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
i'm passed out and its like i'm in a war
life is passing while i'm wasted on the floor
see i've been drowning in a life without no passion
coping with this drink, i know it's tragic
i wanna feel real life, i want some real kisses
feel a real touch, find a real Mrs.
until the fog is gone with god as my witness
imma sober up, imma sober up
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
you ever look back to a certain time and try to reminisce
and all you get are little flashes a piece of the past
as each year past and you started to realize
that the only thing that last is a bottom of a glass
and your freindships plastic, oh well that shit happens
but what about when you
can't even make it through the day
and your hands start shaking, your girlfriend left
and your parents praying for your safety
not just pray but the type that would make atheist
feel like it's something to fate
because maybe only god knows what it takes
maybe only i know how to break it
but i can't because i am caged in a shell of a man
i don't really wanna hear it
hurt the people that are dearest
and it took my soul thats why they call it spirits
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
at 14, i had my first oj and vodka
and thought i was so g
but that quickly turned into
popping these pills and mixing my drink with the codeine
but then i od'ed
i should've listened when they told me
now when i drink
i get to sending you these messages just cause i'm lonely
and it ain't cause i'm wasted
it's because i'm lost, i need you to call
and i don't know no other way
to take away the pain, i'm about to fall
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
ay i am taken by the drink and the ball too
girl i love the people tryna keep me off the vibe too
i ain't got a top two but i wish i got too
smuggle money out of a van what about you
and i am talking about the drink and the liquor
tryna put my brain in a damn figure
all i do is drink and drink and drink and think
drink like 3, 4, 5 in a day, aye
i got a lot of problems, family problems
relationship problems all i gotta do is just solve them
everybody tryna get me all fucked up
tryna do no job so i fill my cup up with hennessy
put me on top, leave me up
call me on the phone when i am far away
yeah i am running from my problems
but i know one day i'll stop
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
it's a quick high then a long low
and you call me tryna come home
but i can't be your only remedy
tryna save you is gonna kill me
so write it down put it in a song
hope you pour it out we'd all feel less alone
instead of getting wasted
waste your time making something real
you can turn your waste to power
helping other people heal
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I got wasted, shot, then i chased it
wanted a taste, now it's my night i am wastin
it's been happening more and more
start with one then i'm pouring four
now i am stumbling through the corridor
crying out for anything except a level head
i've been fighting all these demons
but the spirits put them right to bed
i know they'll find me when
i feel the hungover
cause they don't hate the man
i am until he's sober
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
just one more shot of whiskey
then i'll put the bottle down
the warmth that it provides me
is the best that i have found
and i know that it can't kill me
because i am already dead
and i would do anything to drown
these thoughts inside my head
i'm messed up, fucked up, and i only disappoint
my mental health doesn't give me much choice
drunk in the crowd getting lost in all the noise
if someone screams and no one hears
do they even have a voice?
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
i spent half my life drinkin other half over thinkin
blame it on a dispostion
and a family full of addiction
some say it's already written
i guess the first step is admitting
it's hard being sober and dealing with feelings
but i ain't a quitter i don't plan on quitting, yeah
half a bottle got me catching waves
bring the loud we gone cross fade
used to buy into being an addict
until i learned another way
i've been finding my balance
letting go of my malice
heres a toast to the challenge, yeah
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
since you've been gone
i've been sipping into my sorrows
one last bottle then tomorrow i'll be sober
but i can't escape this hole
that i've been digging in
all my demons fighting wars that i can't really win
i bite my tongue and hit the wall until i bleed
trapped in my thoughts until it's hard for me to breath
and i know it's hard for you to see
but this liquor's got a hold of me
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
look, i'm at the bottom of the bottle again
i be living through a life with a whole lot of sin
and i know i got a problem i don't try to pretend
i be kicking ti with Jack when i don't got a friend
i get wasted sipping a beer
that's how i chase it go to the store
and cop cases when i get drunk no i do not pace it
i done blacked out on many occasions
even thought it never feels good the next day
imma still look forward to the next taste
turning to the bottle when i really need to escape
even though i know it's probably leading to my death day
it's a vicious cycle that is genocidal
and it's taken friends and taken many idols
and i know that i really must stop
if i want to see the day that i'm sitting on top
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
had to quit sippin and get to the money
i'd rather be rich than be numb to the pain
issues within me, i think no one will love me
you tell me it's only inside of my brain
lie to myself then i try to explain
drink to forget and get high to maintain
if i quit for good and i try to refrain
then i gotta admit that i'm drowning in pain
and i don't wanna face it
i would rather pour up and get wasted
straight cause i'm trying to taste it
all of my problems would probably get better with time
but i'd rather drink than be patient
why would i chase it?
love how it hit when i face it
that bottle takes me to places i need to be
when i'm deep in my feelings
i feel like i'm trapped so i sip to escape it
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
i told myself i will never ever drink like this again
it's 5 o'clock on the dot the liquors pulling me in
i'm one more drink from blacking out
so imma try to pretend
like i'm not feeling a buzz but damn i'm wasted
the only time i feel alive is when i'm lit as bitch
i said only one sip now i'm faded
i wouldn't be in this position always feeling like shit
but when the alcohol hits, it feels amazing
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
yeah, another bottle to the face
the liquor numbs what i think
drowning in it but nobody see it
i'm invisible i'm gonna sink down
used to it i don't know who to call
people care so they ain't viewed to have flaws
running from myself, but how can nobody see it?
what if the world cut my lights out
who would show up to my funeral what would it mean
if everyones crying out
praying that i'll be at peace ina place they can't see
they'll know me as the quiet one
but time spent on this earth ain't true to what i wanted
i wish it was all i my head but
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
kicking myself i got wasted again
up all night with jack and jim
tryna drown my thoughts running through my mind
sipping heartbreak chase with moonshine
unholstered glock laying on the table
day by day close to the fatal
this open bible ain't saving me
when it's covered all in this hennessy
but i pick myself back up
pray to god no liquor in my cup
hell and back pull me out the flames
lord on my side, breaking these chains
yeah i never cared what people think
take my demons pour them down the sink
how i see things now it ain't the same
when i am back on track you will know my name
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
can't run, can't hide i do this every time
don't know where else to go
so i drown my pain and ease my pride
sitting on that bathroom floor way to many times
contemplating about my life, 13 reasons why oh why
why did you have to leave you were apart of me
now i drink to grieve the lame that is inside of me
nothing left to do but love for you
so i pour this liqour and i take a shot for you
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
everytime i look in the mirror, all i see
there's somebody just wondering why they always leave
instead of dealing with it and feeling it
i tell myself i don't need someone
when it's all that i need, deep down i'm so lonely
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
another generation down like bleach to a family tree
she is telling me to pour it out
stop drowning in fermented company
i got a lucious trauma to inrich myself
stop this tainted sweat from trickling down
i got a toss away the same shit hell
and keep it far away from my sweet child
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
look, i think i lost my composure
i think a lot when i'm sober
i try to run away from my thoughts
but i still let the bottle get closer
so i drink every night till the morning
hoping the glass will provide me some closure
and i don't want breakfast
so i'll leave the apple and just take a shot on the go
and a couple more because i need that
told my whole family i am a clean man
so they could stop stressing and worrying
bout me even though i know that i relapsed
and i am tired of the lies now
i need full support and i mean that
so i am gone now
i'll see you all after rehab cause
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
got tired of thinking so i start
drinking until i was fully loaded and bloated
my words misquoted, i am wasted and i know it
inbriation we get to leaviation which causes deviation
i am pacing with no patience i am about to blow it
but something ain't pretty so i crack down
i pick up another drink put in back down
instead drinking overthinking
i'm thinking over drinking
i'm way to far to let down
and i know i can't do this on my own
so i come to you because you and i got along
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
i got wasted cause these feelings
that i got hurt like hell tonight
got me caught up, can't stop thinking about a paradise
but can't find it
and everyone around me seems to be surviving
but i, i can't forget the pain that i've caused
i try to follow my heart then i'm falling down
i'm hanging out with all these bottles now so
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
i'll keep drinking till i can't feel myself
got way too wasted couldn't find my way back home
i couldn't find my way back home
but i still can't fight it i'm drowning in my thoughts
just keeps coming back and
i don't know if i'll ever get away, ooh, oooh
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
i've been drinking i've been thinking about the past
whiskey on the rocks don't know
where to put my loving gotta mask on
thinking bout the future, bout the bag
god know i be living sort of brash
hiding all the pain dealing with my lack of focus
this anxiety made me the coldest and not on purpose
i'm an overthinker when i'm hurting
and when i'm not depression a disservice
all the bulletholes in my head space
killed the ego and my view of perfect
no i never wanna be a burden
that's why i'm sippin sippin on this bourbon
i've been i've been living, i've been learning
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna
deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
